Spending the afternoon on the motorcycle with my "deddy" (that's my dad for all of you northern readers) on Sunday was good for my soul. Have you ever had something in your life that just clears your head? Well I have three of these things...running, dancing and riding. So, since David was playing golf on Sunday, I had "deddy" swing on by on "Big Red" and take me for a spin. (I mustn't fail to mention that dad's friend Robert went with us. Man, I sure love my dad and his friends. Sometimes you just need wise older (in years only, I am not referring to anyone as old) people in your life for a little guidance. Robert, his wife Krissy and I had a long talk on Monday while fixing up some things at mema's new condo that made me realize how lucky I am to have a "family" full of these wise people to look toward for guidance. Anyway...enough birdwalking.) Boy I didn't realize how much I needed a little spin on "Big Red" until I was on the back of that bike...It gave me some time to breathe deeply and do some thinking. So before I delve into looking ahead, allow me to look for a moment in the opposite direction.
I've had the absolutely perfect childhood. Everything you could ask for. Loving parents, grandparents, friends and family. Food, clothing, all of the toys, games, new trends a gal could want, a quality education provided for me by my awesome parents...you get the idea. BUT even with all of those things, I have had some difficult things happen to me in my life, particularly in the last 2 years. I mean haven't we all felt like that?! And I didn't realize it until recently, but I was letting those things hold me down. Not in the physical sense...I was still active, appeared happy, had my friends, yada, yada. But I didn't realize how I was allowing it to suck out my mental energy! And I literally mean drain me dry. It wasn't until that afternoon ride, my chat with Robert and Krissy, and my time with my dad that I realized that I had let all of these crappy thoughts take over my brain. So what's a girl to do about that? Well, I working on willing them away! And that's where we get to the "road ahead" part...
I have decided to turn over a new leaf. Instead of allowing the frustrating things from my past to suck out all of my mental energy, I am going to look ahead. Why shouldn't I?! I am only 27 and I have the rest of my life to work on changing the way I look the things life hands me. I have the most wonderful boyfriend, a loving family, and a job that I honestly can't wait to get to when I wake up each morning. I've also recently realized the power of true friendship. You know, the kind that is almost close like family? Yea, that's a hard lesson to learn, but when you find those friends it is such a blessing!
So here is where you come in. If you are reading this, you more than likely are someone special in my life, and I need your help. Remember at the beginning of this post when I was talking about signaling to the riders behind you? Well I need some "signalers" to warn me of danger. If you see me allowing my energy to be sucked dry by negative thoughts, say to me "KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD AHEAD!"
Now, I am no fool. I am still going to have bad days. I will still get frustrated with my family, friends, job, finances, etc. I am in no way taking a Pollyanna approach to my life, but I am just making an effort to change the way I look at these things once the storm has passed. I am not sure why I felt compelled to share all of this, but I hope that some of you "signalers" reading this out there will help me stay focused.
On that note, allow me to share some of my other favorite lyrics from the Sons of Anarchy theme song, This Life by Curtice Stingers.
This life is short, baby that's a fact.
Better live it right, you ain't coming back.
Gotta live this life.
Gotta look this world in the eye,
Gotta live this life, 'till you die
You better have soul, nothing less.
Don't lose your head when the deal goes down,
Better keep your eyes on the road ahead.
Gotta live this life,
Gotta look this world in the eye.
Gotta live this life until you die.
Thanks for reading. And I honestly mean it..calling all of my "signalers" out there...
P.S. I realize these photos have NOTHING to do with this post, but it has been so long since I have blogged that I wanted to share them. They are from the Clemson vs. Troy tailgate.
Now doesn't that just look like pure trouble?!
Thanks Nolan and Carrie for inviting us! We had a blast! :)
1 comments:
AshBash,
So glad that you are letting go of the past and moving on.. Learn from the past and let it go. We are only human and can just live our lives as they come to us. We can't allow ourselves to get sucked into the drama of others like the undertow of the ocean otherwise we will go under... Life is too short and those mean people out there... well they will always be out there and learning to ignore them is the best way to deal with them. They old adage sticks and stones works best.. My grandmother used to say "nothing goes over the devil's back that doesn't come back over his belly" and in my life I have found that to be true... Hang in there and live your life to the fullest.. Don't forget to sing along the way for that to is one of your talents...
Love you,
Aunt Kathy
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